The Rational Mind v The Heart
light, airy buzz. the rational mind only serves to raise feelings of guilt. knowing wrong from right is one thing. To avoid doing what is wrong is another. the rational mind says ‘stay away. this is not good for you’. the heart says ‘the heart wants what the heart wants’. any comparison is meaningless because it was not right from the start. becoming the person you told yourself every morning you will not be. but reality is often if not always different from reality. subverting the voice in your head that tells you to go with the flow. ‘because going with the flow is wrong’, says the rational mind. the conflict between the rational mind and the heart always persists. nothing can subvert their on-going conversation. there is no jury. there is no judge. so the tug-of-war continues. the heart says ‘not actively preventing something from happening absolves you of any responsibility.’ the rational mind says ‘you knew it was bad and you continued. your behaviour is appalling. you are still guilty nonetheless.’ the rational mind is bent on instilling feelings of guilt but the heart says ‘all is fair in love and war’.
but life isn’t fair. and time is never right. there is nothing much one can do. you do not fight fate- because it is a losing battle, one fraught with wounds and scars. and so the rational mind ‘give up, don’t even try. it is doomed from the beginning. it is not good for you. you only accept the love you deserve’. then the heart retorted, ‘what is ‘deserve’?’ it is subjective to the person. even if I think I am deserving, what good does it do me? I am still in the same position, it doesn’t entitle me to anything.’ the rational mind argues, ‘the sense of entitlement and the sense of propriety is in conflict. And in any case, propriety should triumph. it is the first and most important command.’ But the heart said ‘I am more progressive than that. one should fight for what one desires. Propriety is utterly irrelevant.’ The rational mind sighed and said, ‘well then, if you believe that self-respect is one thing you can give up, go ahead dear. I wish you well, but always remember that one day in the near future, you might regret giving up propriety for something you have come to realise was not worth it. but choices and regret are an inevitable part of life; what you may so decide is up to you, but at least I have done my part in informing you that rational thinking leads to short term pain but foolish brash actions leads to longer term pain.’
Preparing for my first moot. This looks like a battlefield. Sour satsuma juice to jolt those little grey cells.
Finally arrived in London!!! It is such a pretty city- even at 5 am in the morning, the city is bathed in a twinkling orange glow from street lights.
It’s amazing that I am finally seeing UK, to experience for myself the marvels of UK. My childhood favourite novels- Famous Five and Secret Seven by British author Enid Blyton described UK as a land full of adventures, possibilities and opportunities and after more than 10 years, I am finally here! I am feeling sooooo happy and blessed for this opportunity to study in London and I will definitely treasure it. Thanks to daddy and mummy for their support so that I could fulfill my dream.
I still remember as though it was yesterday that I was mugging for the A Levels and I pasted a postcard-sized advertisement by the Universities of London to study in London on the wall above my study desk as motivation to study. The red and white “underground” sign and other London attractions kept me focused on my goal.
Wow I am in love with this big city and all the fascinating bright lights. This is gonna be exciting times.
It all starts and ends with Pooh. Thanks Pooh for always having wise words.